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"Lord, Please Heal Me."

The rib‑cage and back pain from the bike wreck were, at times, excruciating. Lying down was the worst of it; the longer I stayed down, the more the stiffness and pain gathered strength. The spasms would seize the entire rib cage, gripping so tightly that even breathing felt impaired. These were not the best of times, and it often seemed doubtful that any of it would ever end. Night after night, trying to sleep in a recliner only deepened the exhaustion. I kept wondering if relief would ever come. Weeks passed with little improvement. Deep breathing and trying to relax into the spasms offered only small mercy. Prayer after prayer rose up — “Lord, please heal me.” I repeated the name of Jesus almost like a chant, but the heart of it was always the same plea: “Please heal me.” And still, the spasms continued. Knowing my own tendencies, a troubling thought surfaced: If I were healed, would I even appreciate it? I remembered the time my father and I pulled a cow from a mud hole it surely wo...

Do You Dare Be Yourself

    If you did not feel love growing up, it manifests itself later in life by being driven to think you have to earn love. Consequently, we end up caring too much about what others think. We tend to be always trying not to disappoint others.   Y ou are reactive and run from conflict. – The FEAR OF REJECTION dominates every interaction, whether we realize it or not.   This is a close topic for me, which is why I understand it so well.  Later in life now, looking back, I can see this people  pleaser person I let myself be.  How many others out there who spent their life trying to please their father, wishing they would just get one pat on the back, some kind of approval, and acceptance?  How many others have taken this approval deficit and made a lifestyle from it?  Is it any wonder folks like me well up inside when confronted with the unconditional love of God, a God who loves me warts and all, failures, and losses?  A God who ta...

Pain Raised my Faith Threshold

Back injury, back pain, sleepless nights with lots of time to be in reflection;  that's the burden for the past few weeks.  Thoughts of future physical limitations sometimes bring doubt, dread, and fear.  What good can come of this ordeal except to burden my caretaker with loving concern?   Where's the "All things work together for good for those that love the Lord and are called according to His purpose?" It's here.  I am not ready to cash in my chips just yet.  Consequently, I have prayed and kept God closer during these times than I can ever remember.  God got very real with me.  "I can do all things through Christ that strengenth me," is what I come back to in the night and times of solitary pain.   He is very near, and my faith and hope abide for whatever and wherever He takes me to.  Pain raised my faith threshold.