Do I Have the Guts to Quit
Here it is in February and I am still in a state of indecision. Do I continue with this Ironman training effort. Yesterday, my soul seemed so laden and I was so sure the answer was quit and do something more productive; something of better use of my passion and learning and God given abilities. Why keep hammering away trying to just get by at something I have no talent at all for? Why stay brain dead from the fatigue of the training anymore? Haven't I done years of that? Is that some hide-out scheme with ready made excuses for lack of performance in other areas of life? It seems lately that I have no passion for it anymore; the quest seems like a de-fizzed coke. And I keep praying for a sign; begging God for an answer. And I wonder: haven't I been given one? Still, everyday I get up and put off doing what I don't have the passion for anymore. And, the loss of passion and the daily procrastination has built in me an element of a lack of self respect. But, w